Fragile by erogerscello

"The sites are fragile, but even more so are the understandings that are sought. For these, there must be time, and quiet- not crowds, or lectures, or guided tours."
-Lipe- about the Anasazi archeological sites he was working with.

As we get closer to the time for arrival in Colorado a few opportunities for connection in the community have come up. An interview on the radio, possible collaboration with a music foundation, lectures to attend, a presentation to give when we arrive. As I have gotten excited about each new possible opportunity to share my/our work and mission of collaboration a part of me has also said internally NOOO! That's not wilderness!!

Wilderness to me is an opportunity for solitude, for seeking, for listening, for stillness, for listening to quiet voices of internal thoughts, outer inspiration that asks nothing in return, for time to percolate and work... without the pressure of relationships, deadlines, external pressures for results- things to share and projects finished, something relevant and prepared to execute and present "properly." 

I am right now aware that much of my life as an artist, musician, teacher involves connection- seeking out people to work with, going through a collaborative process involving rehearsal times and scheduling, working with deadlines and expectations, maintaining artistic relationships to nurture new work opportunities... meeting other peoples needs on time.

I'm looking forward to the space of a month in the wilderness and afraid I'll book it up! I'm looking forward to taking the days as they come, working on my own music and ideas... being present, each day. Looking forward to collaboration without the hassle of scheduling. Looking forward, perhaps, to being alone for awhile.